Why this discombobulation ??

Its 12:28 am . Am I sleepy ? I guess not !. I am still surfing through various sites, my TV tuned to Star Movies. While I am trying to catch some mind boggling scenes of "Avatar", I am also listening to song " Dheere dheere" from "Shor in the City". The movie just got over and I say to myself " WOW...What a Movie !!!" and also appreciate the lyrics of the song. In between I sneak intoFacebook for updates and comments. I am also logged in to GTalk and look for friends who are online who could do some timepass at this hour. I tell myself " Are you crazy??" People might think I am ninnyhammer or less a zedonk but who cares because I can see many of them online still ( sorry no offence meant to anyone in particular :-) ).

More often than not I do try to contemplate why this disarray of thoughts but my thoughts are so vagrant that I just pick up something else even before getting the answer to this. Am I being nonchalant to my own needs??

There is still a day left for the long weekend to get over...so that sinking feeling that comes on Sunday evenings has not set in yet. I had a pretty good day today. Woke up late, watched songs from latest bollywood flicks, met up with a friend ,devoured on some punjabi cuisines, had good time with flatmate back home. So why this abstraction has set in? Why this "Shor in my mind" ? What is it that even though I am physically there with everything yet I am distant ?

Am I really trying to seek an answer or I am just trying to evade it.

Well its August 15th .."Happy Independance Day" to all the Indians.

While I say this, I am making my sincere effort to get myself free from the maze !!!!!!